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and so she found herself with every boy
except for the one that she loved.

word to the wise.

if you're in love with a boy,
don't kiss his best friend.

"then ask me to stay."

Why must this whole love thing be so extremely complicated?

don't leave like this.

"I love you, I love everything about you...

but I don't know if we should be together."

Why is it that everytime I fall in love, I fall for a man who doesn't want to let himself fall back? The first time around I convinced myself that it was all his fault. But now as I'm enduring the heartbreak of yet another smothered love I'm beginning to believe that really the problem here is just me.

a keeper.

If he goes to the store to buy frozen pizzas for you when it's far past midnight, then he's a keeper.

If he cooks those pizzas and kills the spider in the sink for you when it's far past midnight, then he's a keeper.

If he willingly volunteers to clean up after the pizza eating that occurred far past midnight, then he's a keeper.

If you have to fight him away from the dishes, then he's a keeper.

If he hugs you from behind while you're doing the dishes just so he can kiss the crown of your head, then he's a keeper.

If he plays with your hands and kisses your fingers during a movie, then he's a keeper.

If he makes you laugh in every moment you spend with him, then he's a keeper.

And if you really really like him and he does all those other things,
then keep him.

self love.

Boys like girls who know how to be themselves.
If you like Harry Potter, then like Harry Potter.
If you're terrible at soccer, play soccer terribly.
Be yourself no matter who you are with.
And eventually, who you are with will love you for who
you are.

it would be nice to know.

It's an interesting situation to be in. The situation I've found myself in, I mean. I gave my heart to my best friend of five years, and for a week, we were the perfect couple. But within a matter of days everything (and I quite literally mean everything) changed. I was left loving and he... well. He's got other things to focus on in his life. I'm excited for him, I really am. In fact, I couldn't be more excited for him. But as he's moved on to new things, I'm stuck here standing on the ledge between letting go and holding on.

Every day I question myself. Do I hold on to my love for him? Do I wrap it up in all those memories and stash it away inside my heart somewhere where I can find it a couple years from now and just hope for the best? Or do I let go? Do I work to get over it and move on? Because I've got options. At this point, I really do. But as a new young man makes his way into my life, I can't help but to timidly dance around the subject of my feelings... I can't give him my heart when it still belongs to my best friend. I don't want to give him my heart. It still belongs to my best friend. 

But if my best friend no longer desires my heart, then I've got to give it away at some point? 

I have a whole bunch of questions and not a lot of answers. Best friend, do you love me or not?

Because I think it would be nice to know, really.